Yesterday was definitely not my day. It started out normal. I went through the day, my normal happy, smiling self. That’s when it stopped. It was lunch time, so I decided to skip lunch and go to the boys’ CR in the covered court. I met with a few of my friends and asked for a stick of cigarettes. I smoked and asked for a second, then a third. That’s when disaster struck. My music teacher came in and caught me. Actually there were three of us. I don’t know what I was thinking. Two was enough. Three was my downfall. I got called by the head teacher. She made a behavior report but didn’t give it to me yet. She told me to go to Mrs. Guillermo, a high-ranking school official. She told me that I should be honest with her and tell her everything. Obviously, I can’t. Too many will go down with us three if I tell her. Then she told me to come back at 2:45, so I did. Then she told me to come back on Monday. I’m still wondering as it is at what will happen and what I will do. I guess I can tell my Mom about it but my Dad’s another story. He’ll be very upset with me and I do mean upset as in flaming, red hot smoke out of the ears and nose kind of upset. I wish I never learned to smoke. I wish I never went there in the first place. If only I could have foreseen it. If only I had been more keen to what was happening around me or if I hadn’t taken that third stick. I’ll be regretting this for a long, long time. But the problem right now is if I should tell my mom already or tell her on Monday. I am faced with a big dilemma. What should I do? I’ve heard somewhere that I should follow what my heart and morals say. Well, I think they say that I should come clean and tell her the whole truth. Then again, I heard that you should follow your instincts too. Well, I believe that my instincts tell me to tell her only what she needs to know.
Well, I guess I have to tell her the whole truth and not even hesitate for a single second about it. What is done is done and I can’t change a thing about it. I have to face the consequences of my actions like a true adult. It’s time I grew up. Don’t worry, I’ll keep you posted on what happens to me and the guys I was caught with.
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