When they discover the center of the universe, a lot of people will be disappointed to discover they are not it.
This has been a particularly bad day. Haay… this is a long story that I’d rather not tell here. If you’re reading this, ask me about it and I’ll tell you personally. If you only knew how frustrated I am. There she was and yet she still slipped away, probably never to be heard from again.
Ah, well, ganyan talaga. I can’t really do anything about it now. And if I can do something, I have no idea what it is I have to do to get her back. Di bale na. My Lolo used to say that I shouldn’t worry when I’m at the bottom of life because there’s nowhere else to go but up. God bless his soul, I wish he were here. I wish he were right.
Kit and I broke up last Monday. I mean not as girlfriend-boyfriend kind of thing because we weren’t together if you don’t know yet. We haven’t been like that in quite a while. Sometimes you just can’t label something as easily as you would a particular plant or animal by its species, genus, phylum, etc. Same thing goes with relationships. What me and Kit had was one of those innominate kind of setups. Even now, I still have no idea what we had the past few months.
Anyway, I finally threw in the towel and called it quits. I give up. I am so damn tired of caring for her. I thought that I could endure it, that I could take the pressure of being the only one in love in the relationship but that isn’t how things are supposed to be.
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Do you know the Greek myth about soulmates, about the person with whom everything fits? If you do, skip this part. If not, then read on.
Well, it all started when Gaia (the earth) and Cronos (the sky) first created humans. At first they had two heads, four arms, four legs, and both sets of genitalia. Zeus was particularly unhappy with humans, the latter threatening to fight the Gods in the same way that the Titans did. However, the gods could not simply destroy the humans for they would lose the tribute that the latter lavished upon the gods. Zeus’ solution was to shoot down thunderbolts from heaven, slicing the humans in half. Therefore halving their strength and doubling their number with only their navels as a reminder of their previous combined nature. He then set about scattering the people across the face of the earth. From then on, humans would have only one head, two arms, two legs, and one set of genitalia. They would be born alone, forever trying to find the other half of themselves which Zeus had torn from them. When the two found each other, it is said that there would be an unspoken understanding between them for they shared the same soul and they would find no greater earthly joy.
There’s absolutely no reason why I just wrote that. I just remembered it. haha It’s just a nice story worth telling. :)